It’s been just over a month since we stepped off the PCT. And in short, re-entry has been difficult.
It’s been difficult for both of us individually, and especially difficult for our relationship. On the trail we worked strongly as a team, we shared goals and seamlessly supported each other every day.
But since being back there has been a rift between us.
Within 4 days of getting off trail I returned to work. In those 4 days we got all of our stuff out of storage (thank you Kathy and Eric), got furniture for our cozy apartment and did our best to unpack and settle in.
We were very busy, but we didn’t really have a choice.
There was no transition time to process the changes in our environment. On some level I think we both avoided the sadness of such a grand adventure coming to an end by “doing.”
This is one of the scariest parts of coming back – we so easily fall back into a routine of doing rather than being. We can feel ourselves losing the groundedness and calm that came with our extended time in nature.
Additionally, the unknown of Andy’s employment and my deep desire for security and predictability seems to be creating a rift between us. Ironically, this is the time we need to support each other most.
It is hard.
We are dealing with a loss of adventure and excitement. We have stepped back into the mundane world where it takes more effort to seek out adventure, see the beauty in the ordinary and live fully.
We are conscious of this and constantly remind one another to enjoy the present moment and view it as the gift that it is.
And while our next adventure may not be as glamorous or beautiful, every day in the life of Shuffles and Dribbles can be an adventure – we just have to hold onto that attitude, support one another and choose to live the life we want to live.